''Decision!'' Full of D's questions in my mind since I have been graduated from Uni. It made me recall how hard I have made up my mind to pick an unusual position of a society during my Uni life. It wasn't as painful as I felt at that time but it was a very good decision. The result tells the story and of course, I could solely feel it by myself. Sadly, behind a fine decision, there are drawbacks and sacrification. It's a kind of trading in life. ''If you want own something, pay its price.'' Everything has a 'price' tag so it depends on the 'value' of you decision. Life-changing decision? Well, it will need more than just a price I would say but stay determined and confident, eventually, you will get what you're deserved of. Self-confidence doesn't mean high ego. Determination doesn't mean stubborn. It's understandable that people will mis-interpret its meaning but you at the people around you, I'm sure you can differentiate it with you real life experience. I always believe a high ego creates a lot of illusions or non-existing of one's good side and makes them think that, ''I'm the special one, don't ya think so?''. *knock knock* In a community, people have to be more humble and understanding so we could live with mercy and peaceful. Then, what shall we consider? The critical moment is the period where you're considering and thinking before making a decision, a perfect and ideal decision. End up, headache, suffering and pissed off. Sometimes, I just couldn't find a place to calm down myself. I had even lost my sense of direction before. Again decision, I have to choose although I hate it but it's my next step. I will blame myself if I paused right there. I have decided, for my own sake. I move and 'check'.
So, what's your decision? :)
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Yummie! Just couldn't forget how its taste although these photo have been taken randomly last few weekend. Well bcoz it was being prepared by my mummy herself in the middle of busy days. Yum yum! It makes me missing home right now! Arrh.. : <
A cup of coffee, please? I couldn't miss a cup of coffee everyday since my university time. That time, it was mainly used to force me to stay awake for preparing & sitting my exams but now, i'm addicted. Perhaps, it's a bad habit for some people, still i enjoy the taste of such a drink very much, it just couldn't described by any single word, especially under a cooling breeze. It's related to a feeling, calm and comfortable feeling. I miss those right now. There have been a lot of thinking recently, from one decisions to another one. In fact, our life is like a chess game, every turn you made will change next turn, even your entire game. Who are going to spot the 'Check' first? It's reality. We aren't sure where's our future placed but we can make the right move for current situation, (Hmm..) right move to plan my coming years, to finish up my task, to go for traveling and to treat people nice (or bad as how they treat me). I wish there's a cup of coffee (or latte) & a magazine in front of me. Something that I must insist that, work is just part of my life but not all of my life, we must have time that belongs to us in order to find the balance point of our life. What if a rope or rubber is tightly stretched (under tense condition)?
This section will be a photo-sharing section. I have attended one outdoor activity which organized by Vios'07 Club, Go Kart Champhionship (Round 1). It seem truly fun and sadly I couldn't join up the games due to my weakie body that day. So as photographer of the club, i will be doing my usual duty, trying to catch every moments for the whole activities. Glad to meet some of new members and i'm sure Round 2 are on our way. :D
Full series and size of photos could be seen in my Flickr below. Hope you guys enjoy and like it.
I have some interesting conversation with my colleagues. It might be too ordinary that people doesn't care of it or it could stimulate people to think the story behind this short conversation. Well, I have been asked if I'm having my dinner before going home. 'Yes! Definitely since I could do my other things accordingly later'. However, most of them would rather enjoy the meal while they are watching drama or surfing net at home later. It's not something looks attractive enough to be mentioned but for me, it actually reflecting how a person act and think in his life. I believe if you willing to spend 30 to 60 seconds to listen what's a people speaking to you, you will immediately build a link between you & them, more likely a 'understanding' link.
Back to the conversation, I do feel those, who are staying around me and another end of the world, has different way of thinking. The major influence is surely came from our beloved society. When you are about to employ a role from the society, you will be told that 'we need an all-rounder-talent' or 'we need someone who can swim & sing in the same time'. Why? It save time, cost and more efficient. The biggest drawback is we are doing what we are having and we have lost our determination, time & opportunity to improve or specialize all our skills to higher level. Later, we all will becoming 1 kind of people in order to fulfill the needs. All of the ambitions and dreams will be distracted away, as if an empty shell that is trying to fight against the sea waves. Distraction could be in many form e.g pressure. Being pressured is a way to distract your attention or concentration in your mind too. I guess, we hardly get to choose what type of a person we want to be but the time will make us 1 decision. What I can do is to stay focus and concentration as usual in order to make the next move wisely :)
It has been silence here since a month plus ago. Things have been changing & changing all this while until now, I finally have my own time to feel my own presence. Everything have been destined, I believe. It could be considered as the cycle of Life or the path of seeking the true meaning of Life. Well, I have to stay optimistic and tough for every tomorrow.
There are a lot of mix feelings or conflicts in my mind. It's some kind of the matters that I believed, have been diverted or twisted and as the result, I'm confusing. I'm confused how people could think in this way; or how people only talk about 'yellowish' stories or girls; I'm even confused to understand one's true personality. One's could just joked, ''hi, you just looks good today.'', when he just turned around, you could be the ugliest person in his world. So, you would never know who's your alliance or betrayer.
I'm cautious, every minutes given to me because every minutes is treated the Show. Of course, it's an spontaneous one and I'm the standby-actor. No dialogues are prepared and every moments is Live. Until this part, it's very subjective and depending on what are we going to achieve. It could be misled or it could be positive. For me, it's a show where I have play the role well as much as I could in order to achieve a win-win position. Yes, sometimes it could be hard or even impossible. But, feel not too desperate by misusing it with bad role. It might an tasty solution but it ultimately ruin your life. I guess we need to be aware people around but we do need to appreciate people who supporting or loving to us.
The connections are needed to be initialized and monitored it properly, in order to ensure that the signal flows or acknowledgments between you and me are always in the most understandable way.
I always believe that there will be a good return after doing a good thing. :)